if i use my hands to block my ears real tight and shut my eyes real tight, i can pretend it's not happening... when im lucky, their raised voices fade into nothingness... an almost silence... if a shut my eyes, then no more tears can come out... there are times i need to hide under the blanket... and then there are the times when no amount of pressing or hiding can make it go away... i've come to realise that many among my parent's generation have not married for love... and more often than not, it has not worked out to be the best... i wish I had the courage to speak up... I wish I could make them see how trivial their spats are sometimes... something as trivial as buying too much of a particular grocery can escalate into a full fledge screaming match... i know not all marriages are the same blah blah blah but it really makes me wonder what's the point of marriage?

hair. in. food.

realised after eating 1/3.
did not know which one i was more disappointed by; that i hadn't realised sooner or later...

- Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now. -

Wow. i think most of us have been here before... well i have anyway because it's sounding all too familiar... once upon a time...

stressed. im sitting in the library downstairs in the micro building and the other honour students are on the topic of... drum rolls... JOBS. LOOKING FOR JOBS. THE LACK OF JOBS. i'm not ready to go into the workforce yet... but at the same time i have no idea what i want to do next year... the year has crept by so so fast. the half way mark has long passed. to put an actual value on it, there is ONLY 10 weeks left in lab. i feel as though there is still much to do... ARGH. anfksdfsdnfsndf. venting on the key board. feels good. asdnsknfsndgkdfnhkdfngkngksnd. do i want to keep studying. and if so, what ? apparently the best way to approach this is to think about things in the long run. idfdfkdgsnsgnkdnggfgnkfgn blast.

watching supernatural right before bedtime is not a very smart thing to do.

so i have lived to tell the tale of my first solo adventure to asian town : footscray market...
i escaped without being trampled by the hordes of asian women and their trolleys and without losing my hearing, no thanks to the guys yelling out sale sale with a funny accent and random viet words.

as for the wonton noodle soup for which i was getting ingredients for, fail. apparently asian food doesn't taste normal without a good dose of salt or msg. lame...

in with the new and out with the old!

ooooh i do believe it was time for a change and frankly, it might have been just what i needed to get back into the blogging business!

a few weeks back, I brought myself to watch the movie twilight... it was very... interesting, for lack of a better word... and then that was that, i moved on and forgot about it... until I watched the movie daybreakers the other day, because the world really needs yet another movie about vampires... very interesting concept though (no sarcasm intended here) But back to my point, it just reminded me all about twilight again... 'Real' vampires incinerate or at the very least feel intense pain/burning when exposed to sunlight. this has always been the case. except for twilight... in this world, vampires sparkle when in sunlight... who would've thought?